A long day..
I havent really updated in awhile so here I am updating my tumblr at PCE.
I started coaching swimming on top of water polo. Its been pretty fun. I get to swim everyday plus i get to work on my tan again. While running around La Jolla I came to realize how beautiful this place is. A true blessing. I’m so lucky to move to San Diego from Korea.
During my run, I ran past so many crazy houses and nice cars. It felt like every other car was a Bentley, Rolls-Royce, Mercedes, BMW, or a Ferrari. Then, I suddenly remembered the ghetto of Baltimore that I drove past every time that I had to leave campus to go on tournaments. The buildings are all beaten up with broken doors and windows. The signs of businesses were barely visible. Every windows has a protective bars because the neighborhood is so dangerous. I vividly remember people on the streets staring at the bus that I was on. Their clothing were haggard, with dark looks on their faces.
It’s sad to witness the bottom of the bottoms. Also it makes me angry that some of these residents in La Jolla are not even hit by the recent recession. Not the fact that they are successful with a lot of money but the people are so sheltered and i feel like they dont fully understand the other side of the spectrum. Although I’m sure there are people who are fully aware of this and trying to help those who are in need. But truth is that on the other side of the country, the crimes and poverty have became a natural part of a city. Of course, I don’t have the first hand experience of being in poverty but just taking a glimpse at it from a far distance really makes me appreciate everything around me more.
Anyways, my run was pretty good. A lot of uphills which I liked.
Continuing with this theme of appreciating things, I think Pastor David hit the spot today. He was talking about parents and how we need to love them more. When I was preparing for the youth Winter Retreat, I came to realize that I care more for people who are around me more than my family. It’s not like I don’t put my family as my top priority but sometimes i think that because they are my family so they can wait a bit. I don’t know if this will make sense. For example, lets say that my mom wants to do some errands for her, but my friends calls me and asks me to do stuff with/for him or her. I find myself putting my moms errands behind me and do the stuff for my friend. I think I do this a lot because I know that its my mom and it wont really cause a lot of troubles if I dont finish her tasks for me. I guess just knowing the fact that my family will always love me in the end has made me take them for granted. I’m sad to admit that I really do take them for granted.
I’ve seen my mom countless times coming home from work really tired and beat up. And like Pastor David said today that their time is limited here and they are on the decline. That really hit me hard today. Both of my parents eye sights are getting worse. They have problems with their teeth, easily fatigued, and cant do the same routine that they used to do.
I saw a lot of people during service crying today. Even Pastor David got all choked up. Some people from college group were showing tears. Knowing how much my family, specially my parents went through since we’ve moved here, I didn’t tear up at all. Going back to the whole emotion post, I think I’m just too stubborn.
I guess the best I can do this is just simply treat them how they really deserve.
Thanks for reading folks!